shayes

I'm done for a while...

Back in my metal days I wrote a song called cataclysmic inertia. We used to just put two big words together and try and make sense out of them. It usually turned out pretty weird, but sometimes it worked. These two words however have taken on new meaning for me over 8 months. When things start to fall apart they gather a monentum all their own. That is direction my life and and the lives of many of the people closest to me have gone lately.

I won't get into the details because some things need to be left unsaid at this point in time. I feel heavy burden and things need to change for my own sanity. I'm sorry.

I've always been very focused and never made much room for things. I need to reconnect with life, but first I need to completely disconnect. Simplify is the word de jour.  I'm feeling like that old worn out PC. You've installed and connected so much shit to that thing it no longer functions and you don't know why. The thing to do is strip it down, disconnect, and uninstall everything. Then you start adding things one at a time and anything that creates a problem stays on the floor.

In two weeks I'm leaving my job, all the people that are most important to me, and I'll be moving to the other side of the planet for five months. It's a risk my heart and my head need to take. My camera, bike, laptop and clothes are off to Tasmania and I'm gonna go with them.  

Some amazing friends have offered me a place to stay and I am so grateful. I didn't even have to ask, the offer was immediately there. They are the best.

I think dA is going to be one of those things I need to reconnect with and maybe some of you might have some ideas for me. I am a clean slate, and I will provide the chalk. Thailand and New Zealand might be in order as well.

I needed to vent. You're all so cool for leaving comments and featuring works someone who at this moment, doesn't feel like he deserves anything. Thanks so much. I think I need you now and it is time to give back. Time to upload a few shots.

Peace and I'll be in touch.  Promise.

steve

I might be back, not sure. Time is hard to find these days and I find it hard to keep up with the correspondence. Might post something tonight.

You can find me on Facebook a bit. I find it strange that I'm the only person on Facebook that lists one of their interests as linear algebra.

L8r and thanks.

I took news like that to wake me from my dA coma. I'm blown away. Usually Bush awards incompotency.

I just need to congratulate the majority of Americans (at least the ones that voted) that have finally come out of their coma and sent a message to the White House. We can't do it for you.

Thanks for all the comments and favs. They are appreciated even though I am a total deadbeat and don't deserve them.

I've been working on a series of photos over the last few months. I guess I'll call it the "someone" series. I don't think I'm done, but I'm going to start posting them anyway.

This series is about the banality of high school. It's about events that seem unique and serious to those involved, but in truth are rather trivial and happen in every school in North America, only with slight differences.

Each shot in the series has a form of symetry creating a feeling of uniformity with the slight imperfections in that symetry symbolizing those tiny differences between the events. The similar framing and starkness of each frame is meant to convey the banality. I've purposely tried to make the images somewhat uninteresting to reenforce that feeling.

I would rather not explain this shit, but I thought it might be worth putting down. Get what you want out of this, but this is why I did it.